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I’m Afraid to Tell You This…

February 20, 2015 by Lamisha

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There have been many moments in the last 2 years when I’ve wanted to share something with you but have been afraid of what you might think. I’ve held back and decided it might not be the right time or a good idea for fear of how it might change what you think of me.

But, I know I’m not doing you or myself any favors by not sharing the not so happy parts of my journey and as I was thinking over the last few months, I realized it’s time to share this with you.

I’ve been afraid to tell you about the 5-month period in 2014 when I thought I was going to have to close my business and give up on my dream. It was something I never thought I would do, but there were moments when I didn’t think I had a choice.

Lucky for me, I did.

From May – September last year, I struggled to make my business work. I had a handful of clients and the number was slowly dwindling down to almost nothing. But it wasn’t just that, I was struggling with something far worse…my identity.

I knew I wanted to coach. I knew I was meant for this work and I knew without a shadow of a doubt that this was my path. The problem came when I couldn’t quite figure out what I wasn’t doing ‘right’ in order to make my business thrive.

Looking back it became completely clear: I was allowing others to be my guru instead of listening to my intuition.

In fact, it got so bad at one point, I was questioning my skills, my coaching, and my dream of helping other women make their dream a reality.

On more than one night I cried out of fear, worry, and pure disappointment that somehow my entire path was being thrown off and I had somehow missed the mark. What was true was I had missed the mark, but it wasn’t in my path, it was by allowing someone else to throw me off it.

My heart and soul knew exactly what I needed to do, but I didn’t trust it. I allowed certain mentors and coaches lead the way because I was so new to it all, I thought they knew everything. And the truth is, they did…for their own path, but not for mine.

It took 5 months of desperation, fear, and distracted worry to lead me back to what I set out to do in the beginning…change lives.

It took many tearful nights and a whole lot of doubt for me to get to a space of clarity to see that yes I did know how to make things happen and I could listen to that inner voice inside that was telling me all along it would all work out.

Turns out she’s pretty smart.

Looking back on those moments, I am so glad I didn’t give up. I’m glad that I reached out to the right mentors that didn’t tell me what to do or try to convince me to do it their way.

I found people that would support me in my vision, who believed in me, and helped me tap into that power deep inside that helped me stay the course and not give up.

Did they question me when I became too fearful to fly?

Yes, but out of love and the desire to see me soar. But what they did for me more than anything else is remind me that above all else, I have to follow my heart-the very thing I teach all of my clients.

You see coaching isn’t about leading you in one direction or another or telling you how to do something. It’s a co-creative journey that when done well, will lead you back to the power you have had all along to create the amazing life of your dreams. Coaching is about clarifying your desires, uncovering your fears and other blocks, and empowering you in a way that reminds you, anything is possible.

I learned early on with the right support, you can make anything happen and it’s exactly why I do what I do.

After those scary 5 months of uncertainty, I now stand taller and more proud of my decisions because I know I am making them from the heart and honestly, there is nothing better.

If you have a dream that you aren’t ready to let go of and you need someone to support you along the way, I have 2 spots left in my Breakthrough program for February before my rates increase March 1st. Now is the time to make the commitment to yourself and the dream that has been following you for years. Are you ready to take that next step? If so, I invite you to sign up for a free 30-Minute Consultation to chat about how I might be able to help you. If I am not the right coach for you, I promise to help you find one that is.

My Biggest Fear…

January 13, 2015 by Lamisha

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If you are on my VIP list you know I’ve been thinking about fear and how it’s a f–king liar.

It’s true. And even though I know this to be true, I have still struggled with fear myself in many ways.

The fear of being seen in my business was a big one for a long time that kept me playing small.

But, my biggest fear of them all has been…lack of control.

You see, for as long as I can remember, I’ve always tried to be 2-4 steps ahead of my current circumstances. Trying to make sure all things go as planned and that I don’t end up blindsided by some crazy disappointment in life, I would work out all the outcomes in my mind and figure out how to avoid the bad ones.

Simply put I worried…a lot!

I developed general anxiety because I was always trying to stay ahead of the moment. If I was making a decision about what to do, I would try to predict the outcome so I could strategize how to cope with it in advance. Needless to say I wasn’t mindful or present in any moment. I was always worrying about the future.

When it came to goal setting and setting intentions, I would torture myself! I needed to know how it was going to work out and while I had some positive focus that it would, if I didn’t see the way, then I wasn’t convinced.

I had zero faith.

It’s taken a long time for me to get over that general anxiety and to stop worrying so much, but there are times when I can feel myself slipping back into needing to know how things are going to work out as opposed to just trusting they will.

The truth is, if we expect a specific outcome and we are open to how the outcome is manifested, there is nothing to worry about. The perceived control I have over seemingly everything in my life is a bit misunderstood.

The only things we control are our thoughts & actions which in turn create our reality.

So, if being a control freak in how your dreams come true is something you struggle with, take a step back. Take a deep breath and grab a pen and notebook.

I want you to write down all the ways your dream (or another situation) could manifest perfectly. I’m not saying these are all things you might believe at the moment, but write down all the ways it could happen. Get creative and remember that the Universe has every resource available to use and we only know a very small portion of that. To expect that our way is the only way is a bit misguided and is the best way to lead to frustration and it may even cause a delay in manifesting what we want in our lives.

Be open to more than just the way you think is ‘realistic’ or ‘probable’. The Universe doesn’t work with reality…it works with magic & miracles and I assure you as soon as you open your mind to ‘how’ it can happen and let go of the outcome a bit, more magic and miracles will find you. It’s just how it works.

If you are still struggling with manifesting your deepest desires and want to learn about how to make that happen with ease, grace, and more flow, I encourage you to check out my 7 Secrets to Manifest the Life of Your Dreams. In this free video series, I share with you my biggest secrets to manifesting. Secrets I’ve learned after many years of trying to be realistic and logical.

Magical Manifesting is a wonderful way to create the life you have always wanted…not just in cash and things that you can buy, but in experiences, time, and freedom. Manifesting the beautiful experiences and feelings you’ve always desired and inspiring others to do the same is why I do this work.

I would love for you to join us on February 1st for a journey of Magical Manifesting. This 6-week group program will give you the steps, tools, and secrets you need to create the life you have always wanted and provide you the practical experience that will infuse you with the faith you need to keep going. Space is limited, so if you are interested I highly encourage you to reserve your place now!

My BS: Who Am I To Help?

September 17, 2014 by Lamisha

Earlier this week I shared this post with my VIP tribe and while it’s a bit of a vulnerable post, I realized how important it is for me to share it with you as well. May you find comfort in knowing that you are not alone and join me in facing your BS head on, because honestly it’s hard to change anything with that junk holding you back.

Ok, it’s time for me to get something off my chest. It’s something I’ve been thinking about a lot recently as I have been facing the BS (aka Blind Spot) that has been holding me back and I’m done with it!

The past two months have been pretty tough. The positive side of me wants to tell you all about the growth, the lessons, and the beautiful blessings in disguise and while there was a lot of that going on that’s not always how it felt. There is another part of me that remembers the worry, the fear, the frustration, and at times the overwhelming tears.In the midst of chaos at home, schedules being thrown out the window, and lots of change going on both personally & professionally, I was forced to face my BS…head on.

The BS I’m talking about is both bull shit & something you may know as my Blind Spot.Yep, in the middle of sharing with you how your BS can hold you back, mine was there waiting for me, trying desperately to get me to not only play small, but quit playing all together. (Funny how that happens right?) And once I realized what it really was that was holding me back in my business (with the help of another coach), I knew I had to share it with you.

So, here is my most recent experience coming face-to-face with my BS. My hope is that when you hear my story, you leave with a deeper understanding of how imperative it is to identify and clear your own Blind Spot and you have a bit more compassion for yourself. Regardless of who you are, what you do, or what area of your life is affected, we all have thoughts & beliefs that are holding us back in our careers, love, relationships, and life in general. And the best part of all: there is a way to identify and clear it!

Coming face-to-face with your BS isn’t fun or all that comfortable, but I assure you it is the first step to living that amazing, free-flowing, ever expanding life of your dreams. It is almost as if we believe we can’t or shouldn’t have it all, but as one of my favorite quotes says:

“We ask ourselves: Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?”

~Marianne Williamson

Go be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous and clear the BS that is in your way! You have an amazing life of freedom and flow to live so hop to it!

I believe in you,

Are You In Danger of This? (And how not to sacrifice your happiness.)

September 4, 2014 by Lamisha

What if someone could tell you without a shadow of a doubt the way your future will likely unfold if you continue on the exact course you are on this very minute?

Would you be interested?

No, I’m not switching businesses and becoming a psychic 🙂

I ask you that because I know something that you might not be aware of and again I’m no psychic, but I have seen this enough to know that you might be in danger.

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Meet Joni* (Names have been changed for privacy sake.)

Joni is an incredibly talented entrepreneur. She’s sweet, charismatic, caring, compassionate and people adore her! She’s married to her soul mate, has a gorgeous home, and is blessed with creativity that flows like an open faucet. Her business is booming and her calendar is booked out 9 months!

BUT…

She’s got a problem and it’s a BIG one.

She is having a hard time finding balance amongst all the awesomeness that is her life.

When she is in work mode, she’s hard-core. She works long hours, stays up late, and often burns the candle at both ends.

When she manages to find time to focus on her ‘home’ life with her hubby, she is constantly trying to make up for lost time.

She’s lost on the teeter-totter of two extremes and no matter what she does she can’t quite find the happy medium.

The result:

She’s frustrated and cranky most days. When she’s focused on her business, she worries about her relationship and the many things at home that feel half-assed or un-done. When she’s at home, she worries about being at work. She thinks: “What if my clients need me? What about the next deadline? The next launch? Did I return all important emails?”

She’s stuck, overwhelmed, and feels guilty about not being where she needs to be and often feels like a failure.

She frequently discounts her successes or over looks them completely because she becomes hyper-focused on the things that aren’t working (aka not being able to find balance).

What on the outside looks like an awesome life, on the inside feels unbalanced and incomplete. She frequently thinks that “if only” she could find the balance between her two very important worlds, she could finally ease into relaxation mode and actually enjoy the magnificent life she has created.

But without being able to see the core issue (which is not the lack of balance in her life), she is destined for a life of exhaustion, fear, frustration, and stuck-ness. She is blind to the belief that is holding her back because she is simply too close to see it. What she thinks is a simple fix that centers around time management and taking a break every now and then is really just a symptom of a deeper issue.

She has a choice. She can continue to try to treat the symptom (i.e. the lack of balance in her life) and experience the brief reprieve that it provides for her or she can choose to seek help. And to be honest, she must first understand and be aware of the consequences of not clearing this issue.

Examples:

A stressed work life can result in physical illness
A stressed home life can result in relationship trouble
A stressed inner life can result in incredible fear, lack of confidence, self-sabotage, and even worse…an unhappy, unfulfilled life.

Getting to the end of her rope and being truly ready to move through this challenge once and for all, Joni reaches out for help. She knows the magnificence that lies on the other side of this struggle and she’s ready to identify and clear the belief that is holding her hostage in exhaustion, fear, and frustration.

The question is are YOU?

Many of you may be able to directly relate to the specific challenge or symptom that Joni has struggled with or you have your own issue that manifests itself in your life or business in your relationships, self-care, time management, procrastination, marketing (or lack thereof), or maybe it is something different.

The point is we all have that one thing that keeps showing up for us over and over again that leaves us feeling drained, frustrated, and just plain stuck. There are some of you who are ready to throw in the towel and accept that ‘this is just the way life is’ and you may even believe ‘you just can’t have it all’.

But I am here to tell you, there IS a solution to your problem and it starts with this first step: You must first know the consequences of continuing on the path you are on and refuse to sacrifice the joy and fulfilling life you are destined for any longer.

That’s it.

Life is supposed to be amazing and you are meant to work through the lessons, beliefs, and challenges that hold us back from that incredible joy. It is part of your journey, but you get to choose if you are ready to move forward and clear it and some of the biggest challenges are those we can’t see directly because we are simply too close.

With that I ask you:

What amazing-ness are you sacrificing by staying stuck? AND Are you ready to take the first step to free yourself from the struggle and frustration?

If so, I invite you to schedule a 30-Minute Consultation to chat with me about your challenges and to see if (like Joni) you are ready to clear them once and for all. No strings attached. So what do you say? Are you ready?

P.S. Don’t forget that the 7-Day Resolution Refresh challenge begins on Monday so if you are in need of some inspiration to get some of those amazing goals knocked off your to-do list, get signed up so you don’t miss a beat!

Confession Time: I Didn’t Listen To My Heart…and I Failed (sort of)

August 20, 2014 by Lamisha

To be honest with you, I have been dreading writing this post. Part of me knew I had to do some processing mentally and emotionally before I could put anything in writing and the other part of me was just plain embarrassed.

Embarrassed of looking like a fraud, a scam, a loser and my worst fear…a FAILURE.

So what did I fail at exactly?

I failed at listening to my intuition when it told me something wasn’t a good fit.

I failed at recognizing the signs that reinforced something wasn’t a good fit.

I failed at standing in my power to declare to myself and YOU that it’s ok to pull the plug on something that isn’t a good fit.

So what is this elusive ‘thing’ that isn’t a good fit?

The 90-Days To Biz Brilliance program.

Yep, the program I was so excited about (initially before the signs) and the same program I put off releasing twice for various reasons (because I clearly ignored the signs.)

The short story is this. I fell into the trap of thinking that other people know me better than myself and while some of my clients are female entrepreneurs, I am not a ‘business coach’. Here’s where it gets a little confusing even for me. The biz brilliance program is actually full of amazing content, support, information, and practices to handle the stuff that comes up when you are creating a business, but it is also good for people NOT in business.

I was excited about the program. I shared it with you and in various other networks happily. I loved the feeling of the program, but something I couldn’t quite put my finger on felt off. The more I shared, the more off it felt. And when the feeling got to be too much, I knew that it wasn’t going to fly, but I was too afraid to pull the plug for fear of looking unprofessional. I didn’t want anyone to think any less of me and to see me the way I was seeing me in that moment…a failure.

But despite all of that this is what I have learned:

I now know what the off feeling feels like in my body and I can use that in the future
I took a HUGE step to create a program that has good bones and can be used in another way…later
I am not a failure
I now have more clarity about what isn’t a good fit for me, which is equally as important as knowing what is
Life (and my business) goes on despite this bump in the road
Listening to my intuition and inner wisdom is always the best way

It is imperative to trust that tiny whisper within that tells you something isn’t right and the nudge you get to go in a particular direction. Learn to listen to yourself and let go of the other stuff that doesn’t feel right for you. Tap into your intuition on a daily basis and allow it to guide you forward. It takes practice, I know especially when you are in business and there are so formulas for ‘success’. Your success will come to you in a way that feels right and fits your path.

Another big thing this experience taught me is that trying is succeeding in its own right, so keep trying. Keep experimenting and keep going. Do you know how many times Albert Einstein ‘failed’ in his experiments before he got one ‘right’? If one of the most amazing scientific geniuses in history can ‘fail’ a few times to get to something incredible, then don’t you think we can too?

Life is about experience, so remember that as you try and try (and try) again. Don’t forget to trust too. Trust is a big part of the process. Knowing that you will get to where you are going as long as you keep going.

P.S. We are entering the last 4 months of the year (where does the time go!) and I know there are dreams and goals that you have been procrastinating on. It’s time to get a Jump Start don’t you think? My 1-month Jump Start package is available to help you take big action and get moving immediately toward your dreams. Haven’t you waited long enough? Get signed up for your free 30-minute consultation to get started for September.